Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Stressed Out!

I'm not really stressed about school(except for maybe all the hoops they make you jump through when you dont go with the flow like a dead fish, like the measle shot policy, registration, yada, yada, yada).
My financial situation is probably my most stressing thing right now. Not having a job and having a family that looks to you as the breadwinner is tough. Having to say no no no to your wife and children all the time because you barely have enough to pay the bills gets old really fast.
I've notoced through my life that when I get stressed I tend to break out with rashes. I've always had sensative skin, and it intermittedly will flair up with rashes just because sometimes, but it seems to always flair up when I'm stressed out.
I have a few things I do for stress relief. I find that some manual labor helps me to clear the head and feel productive. I'll go out and split wood, or I'll clean the chicken coop, or do yard work. I need brainless things to do that will tire me a little bit I guess.
I usually turn to 2 people when I'm stressed out also, My God and my wife. I vent to both of them, sometimes quite rudely. Sometimes I will tell God of my general dissasisfaction with how He runs things, and offer Him a few points of improvement (He never takes my advice though). Sometimes I just rail at Him. He knows its in my heart anyways right? Why not just be honest and say it?
My long suffering wife has also had to endure some diatribes. I guess you could say that stress makes me grumpy. The both of them seem to know me pretty well though and take my railings and diatribes with a grain of salt. They both listen really well too.
I dont usually feel better after a diatribe, but I do feel better after some fervent prayer and sometimes He gives me a little sign that He knows where I'm at, like an unexpected check in the mailbox or a friend from florida to call and say that I or we were on their heart. It just brings a little relief.

1 comment:

  1. I would love to witness your angry diatribes!! ;) I do the same to my husband and bless 'em for sticking around with us huh?

    Manual labor I find is always a great stress relief and it pumps endorphins which make us feel better so that is a great technique.

    I hope everything works out - tough times indeed. At least you have a great support system and some darling children! 10/10

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